World turned upside down

Hey lovelies, this post is gonna be about how my whole world and life was completely turned upside down and in and out. When you are young and healthy and happy you think that nothing bad will happen to you. And yes you may hear on the news of other people who are sick and battle with something bad in their life, and yes you do feel bad for them and hope that it never happens to you. But, what if the tables turned and then you are the one on the news or in your family who is sick and having something bad happen to you? Now, for me growing up I had a very good and happy childhood, thank you to my amazing parents and family. I would hear about other people getting sick and all that bad news like that, but I never thought that a sickness, especially something like cancer to happen to me. When I was in the hospital and I found out that I had a freaking stage 4 tumor in me I was crushed. I kept on thinking to myself "how and why is this happening to me and my family?" You never think something like cancer would effect your life or something like that would happen, but when it does happen your life is just changed and turned upside down. I struggled so hard with accepting it. I would ask God " why me, I have not sinned or done anything bad in my life to deserve this." I used to feel so shitty in school and at home in pain and just struggling to do everyday task before I was diagnosed and knew what was actually happening to me. You know I just thought it was simple back pain and hip pain and just teenage stuff and my body changing. But, no, it was my body just trying so hard to fight off this actual disease. I knew that I needed to stay strong and keep on fighting. I was not only fighting for me, I was also fighting for my family and my friends and everybody in my life. And I have come to terms that, yes I am sick, but that does not and will not stop me from living my best life and fighting for it. That is why you always gotta stay strong and keep on pushing.