Take a Break

Hey lovelies, I am so grateful to have made it this far in my journey in life that god has granted me, but I have to be honest, I am a little tired. It is hard having to literally fight for your life and keep strong. Like when I have to go in for blood work for example I am so tired of having them treat me like I am a pin cushion and poking and jabbing and squeezing my arm just to try to find the perfect location to take blood from. Yes, I have come to terms that I am going to have to always have different test done on me and different check ups on me for a long time until I am healthier. I used to also have to take sooo many pills that I was like oh hell no I cannot even think about it, but it actually has gotten better so that is good. As my health gets better so do the little things like that as well get better. I have had to be this warrior and strong soldier, sometimes I do need to put my armor away and just be a real human being and let those emotions happen. Sometimes I still have my lazy days and those days where I just need a good cry. It is okay to feel a little bit of pity for yourself, but do not let that consume you. Think about all the blessing you have in life and be grateful for that. In my life I value the big and little things, like going on car rides with my parents and talking about past memories and new memories that we have made. I am thankful for my ability to walk and how I literally did not give up, even when people thought I would be in a wheelchair for a long time, possibly the rest of my life. I got up every morning and did my physical therapy and worked everyday. The little things like having a nice coffee in the morning and watching The Golden Girls with my mom on Hallmark and laughing our butts off to that show and sharing and talking about funny times. I cannot forget about my two loves as well, my dog and my kitty cat. I love my animals to sooo much and would do anything for them, they are my support animals because they get me, and know when I need some extra love form them. If you ever find yourself in a funk just take a deep breath and think about all the good things in life. Love and value the things and the people around you. You won't regret it!