No Pictures Please📷

Hey lovelies, as a teenage girl growing up in this century I like to take pictures and selfies of myself and with friends and family. Well all my selfie taking days came to an end when the symptoms of my cancer started to appear. A little background to explain my symptoms. With the type of cancer I had my adrenal glands were overworking and just pumping out tons of steroids. The steroids caused me to gain weight fast in my stomach, legs, arms, and face. This caused me to have stretch marks on my legs, arms and basically my whole entire body, the steroids also caused me to have facial hair on my face. Now as a queen I used to love to take pictures of myself and friends and family. But once my face started to get a little chunkier I was like "No". I lost that self love and appreciation for my beauty. I would be in the bathroom and not even look at myself in the mirror, I would open my camera on my phone and just stare at it and not take any pictures. While this was going on I also fell into this depression. I would avoid my friends at school and I would eat lunch alone. I even lost my passion for cheerleading during this time, because I didn't feel like the cute Sophia that I always was and that people knew me by. I was almost unrecognizable to myself. This was a tough time for me because I had no idea what was happening to my mind and my body and it was very scary. I was not the cute and bubbly and happy girl that I was, instead I turned into this overweight sad and lonely girl. Instead of feeling like a queen I felt more like a peasant. But, I will never forget the people that were in my life at this time still trying to be my friend even tho I tried pushing them away. Never forget my coaches and teachers for also not loosing hope in me. Overall I feel like you could never loose the inner beauty that you have no matter how hard you try to get rid of it or hide it deep down. Once a queen always a Queen👑.