Hey lovelies, so it is currently 5:32 AM when I am writing this. I was just up and scrolling through Tik Tok... Yes, yes, my friends and mom finally got me hooked on Tik Tok and I can not stop watching it. But besides that I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. some good and some bad memories have been passing by in my brain. I can not even explain into word the feeling of having this sickness and not thinking that something as serious as cancer would ever affect you or your family, until it does. Like sometimes I sit back and think "Wow is this really my life?? Why me??" And my mom and my rockstar godmother think that I am somehow the chosen one and this is my mission and that I am the miracle child that will get through this and survive. Now, I do not want to get all dark and serious cause this is a fun website about me and my life but with my sickness sometimes I have to get serious. There was a point in time where my doctors and some of my family did not even think I would make it this far. But, yah know what... I PROVED THEM WRONG!! I beat the odds of my doctors and I am still here fighting. Yes, I do have to admit that there will always be this fear that I have in the back of my mind thinking "OK what and when is my next fight, when do I have to prepare myself too literally fight for my life?" I have truly been blessed with the best family and best support system from my school and other places and also I have been blessed with some of the greatest most smart doctors and nurses. This journey so far has taught me a lot and shown me sided of people that I thought I would never see. It has taught me who my true ride or dies are, and yes it is kinda sad that I have very few ride or die friends but as long as I have them in my life along with my great family and awesome support from my school and my community, I know that I can get through this struggle and ANYTHING I mean ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!! So, yeah sometimes I will admit I get scared and do not know what to do and I do realize all my struggles but for my Guardian Angel and my supporters and lovelies I stay strong and will continue to fight this fight no matter how hard it gets.
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